[ caught, huh? he doesn't look away from dimitri as he speaks and keeps his voice even but not emotionless. ]
I'm not going to be moved to kill anyone here just to fulfill any kind of rite or based on a lofty promise.
[ just to put that out there and make things clear. giyuu is far from going to allow himself to be made or turned into a murder machine just because someone or something promises them they can go free for the exchange of a few lives. been there and done that—he hates to see it.
though, before he continues, he allows silence to fill in the space for words that don't come easy. they're likely words that won't be believed but it's fine. if dimitri shrugs them off then it changes nothing about giyuu's resolve. ]
...but I've done enough to you and the others.
[ dimitri told him repent with his life to protecting that kindness he saw in someone else, right? well, why can't he use it here as well? ]
[ Because Tanjiro's kindness isn't here. Dimitri's doesn't even begin to compare. His lips thin together, expression shuddered for a moment.
It'd be better if he didn't get involved in this. Why couldn't he just stop caring and leave and let things be? Instead, he continues these strained conversations, mulling on the right things to say, as though there is a right thing. ]
You...
[ Being brought here really made a mess of everything. But after wrestling with himself a moment, he can't just leave. ]
We all did so much to each other. It wasn't just you.
[ For a 'happy' ending, they had hurt each other so much. ]
[ somewhere someone could wax poetic about how happiness cannot be known without experiencing pain because without pain one would never know the joy of happiness...
but that's just gonna be there in metatext for the moment as giyuu continues to refrain from having his emotions show on his face, if only out of learned habit. ]
The root of it was me—the me that was under the influence of the island, but me nevertheless.
[ he says it plainly because it has been what so many have expressed to him in ways that he could even understand. some, rachel, have said it to directly to his face. the next thing he says could be followed up with a mention at the differences of their ages but the difference between them is that wide. ]
There's a weight you carry, but there's no need for you to carry any more than what is already there.
[ Maybe it's true that Giyuu was the vehicle by which they all suffered. That he, specifically, has something special to atone for. If Dimitri had arrived with his dagger still gripped in his palm, he is not sure he would have been able to keep it sheathed.
But as it stands, he shakes his head. ]
You were the root of the evil we suffered. But you're wrong— [ his words stagger. my friend, he would have said once before. ]
This is a weight we'll all share, Giyuu. I know you think yourself a pillar, but this is not something you can take from me.
[ It isn't out of some softhearted memory of their bond. What happened on the island is just part of their shared histories now, and there was no erasing that. ]
I am not here to kill you. I am not here to give you my burdens, either.
[ giyuu's views on the situation are ones that he doesn't know if he could explain clearly and even so, he isn't here to tell dimitri how to think. the people standing here are not the same people who first met on that island and it's unknown whether it was for the better or for the worst.
all that giyuu can say for himself is that there are things he must do even if no one asks him to do so. so even as dimitri shakes his head and puts up the boundaries, giyuu stands still. ]
You don't have to give me your burdens; I will not ask that of you.
[ if he ever had that right, he lost them for sure. ]
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I'm not going to be moved to kill anyone here just to fulfill any kind of rite or based on a lofty promise.
[ just to put that out there and make things clear. giyuu is far from going to allow himself to be made or turned into a murder machine just because someone or something promises them they can go free for the exchange of a few lives. been there and done that—he hates to see it.
though, before he continues, he allows silence to fill in the space for words that don't come easy. they're likely words that won't be believed but it's fine. if dimitri shrugs them off then it changes nothing about giyuu's resolve. ]
...but I've done enough to you and the others.
[ dimitri told him repent with his life to protecting that kindness he saw in someone else, right? well, why can't he use it here as well? ]
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It'd be better if he didn't get involved in this. Why couldn't he just stop caring and leave and let things be? Instead, he continues these strained conversations, mulling on the right things to say, as though there is a right thing. ]
You...
[ Being brought here really made a mess of everything. But after wrestling with himself a moment, he can't just leave. ]
We all did so much to each other. It wasn't just you.
[ For a 'happy' ending, they had hurt each other so much. ]
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but that's just gonna be there in metatext for the moment as giyuu continues to refrain from having his emotions show on his face, if only out of learned habit. ]
The root of it was me—the me that was under the influence of the island, but me nevertheless.
[ he says it plainly because it has been what so many have expressed to him in ways that he could even understand. some, rachel, have said it to directly to his face. the next thing he says could be followed up with a mention at the differences of their ages but the difference between them is that wide. ]
There's a weight you carry, but there's no need for you to carry any more than what is already there.
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But as it stands, he shakes his head. ]
You were the root of the evil we suffered. But you're wrong— [ his words stagger. my friend, he would have said once before. ]
This is a weight we'll all share, Giyuu. I know you think yourself a pillar, but this is not something you can take from me.
[ It isn't out of some softhearted memory of their bond. What happened on the island is just part of their shared histories now, and there was no erasing that. ]
I am not here to kill you. I am not here to give you my burdens, either.
[ He won't rely on him. ]
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all that giyuu can say for himself is that there are things he must do even if no one asks him to do so. so even as dimitri shakes his head and puts up the boundaries, giyuu stands still. ]
You don't have to give me your burdens; I will not ask that of you.
[ if he ever had that right, he lost them for sure. ]
I just don't want to add to what is there.